Dirty (JOATMON)

I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

You were supposed to be the first one
Second chance @ wedding bands, ended up being the worst one
I was trying to make it work, but it wasn't working
I was blinded by the potential life
In the daze of the haze of you being my potential wife
You had an exponential light and I wanted to see where it shun
Ma of you I was in awe, but just like staring at the sun
Ya aura burnt my coronas
Ya lies Miss scorched my iris
Never again will you return to my retinas
Bring it back Mr. DJ of the relationship records
But when you scratched too much the 45 is damaged
That's why I'm sittin here-sittin here-sittin here stranded

I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

Damn! When you broke the dam
All hell broke loose, it was supposed to be damned
I think her name was Tam, naw maybe it was Pam
Man either way I had -am crammed all up in the lam
Living life in nights, I don't even know A.M.
Living life in satellite, no FM, or AM
I don't even know who I am, so i look through photos in a cam
with blurry definition, funny I remember it no different
Living life in the instance, it ends in an instant
Others deep woods huntin, I'm deep sea fishin
Reelin in holy mackerels, penetrating vaginals
In this sport I'm a shark, a whale of an asshole
Set sail with my back to, my past my mast to
A thick chick with ass and a star trail tattoo

I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

You stay poppin up in my mind's news ticker
I always see your updates and your new pictures
I cringe everytime I see you dat nigga
....Cuz i was supposed to be dat nigga...
But since he dat nigga
Fuckin all the other hoes, I be Dat nigga
Funny thing is I don't even see that nigga
All i see is weed, dat liqour, these hoes
Like the waterfall video before she goes
In the mirror, not thinkin about if I'm infected
But "Who is this man?" and "Where have I defected?"
Where is my pulse? Why can't I detect it?
If I'm deceased? Can I be resurrected?
Can i be restored? can i be re-corrected?
Can i be revived? Can I be redeemed?
Can we be reteamed, can it be re-dreamed


I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

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